Somethings never change

Hey Swet, I have some tea for you… I met with my ex for lunch after so many years. On my way to the restaurant, my heart was palpitating, I had sweaty fingers and I was so anxious I wanted to throw up. I’m sure you’d ask “Then why did you go?”

When I said so many years, I meant SO many years and I was curious. I wanted to see if truly “time heals all wounds” It does. When my uber got to the location, it parked across the street from the restaurant and I already sighted his car in the lot. I texted him while I paid the cab fare. Came down, crossed towards the restaurant and the moment he came down from the car to meet me halfway, my heart was calm—I’ve healed. A thousand questions went through my head. Should I shake him, should I hug him, am I smiling, should I just say “hey” The moment I was within arms length, he pulled me in for a hug and he smelt so good but different from the scent that hunted me for years. It’s crazy that I can tell the difference. He was bigger, buffer, taller and I was so tiny in his arms. We broke away from the hug and stared at each other.

You look so beautiful. It’s been a long while

He pulled me towards the entrance, we went in and sat down. We ordered food and Long Island cause I told him I wanted something with alcohol. When they brought the drink, I took his drink and sipped from it but when I looked up, he was just staring at me. I put it down and took mine. I expected him to ask for another straw or clean the straw atleast but he just held eye contact and sucked from the same straw. We chatted for a while and I got comfortable that I pulled off my heels and rested my legs on his thighs. He instinctively held it and started caressing my ankle.

You wear anklets now

We talked about everything. He apologized for how he ended things. We finished up, went for a ride and at night, while we were waiting for my uber at a public parking lot, he leaned over and kissed me and I kissed him back. We broke the kiss, looked at each other and went back at it. I grabbed his shirt while he threaded his fingers into my hair and we just lost it. I crossed the middle console of the car and straddled his waist and kept kissing him while he grabbed my waist and neck and held me so close our heart started beating as one.

I felt him rapidly get hard beneath me and I was no different from the ocean then his phone rang. My uber was outside. We fixed ourselves, he opened the door for me, walked me to my uber and pecked me while saying goodnight. We talked when I got home. He told me how I left a wet patch on him which made me slightly embarrassed and he teased me about it for days. I guess something’s never change.

When he went ghost again, it was just like years ago. Really, somethings never change but atleast he gave an excuse this time.

I don’t want any of us to catch feelings for the other

Worry about yourself.